Here ya go.....

Why do I make blogging more difficult than it needs to be. You just sit and type what is on your mind right? Yeah you would think it would be that simple. Psh not for me the perfectionist. I sit and do a rough draft then edit, delete, rename, take away paragraphs, add paragraphs, delete the whole thing than rewrite it and then it starts all over again. Goodness. Blogging is a Love/Hate thing for me. I would LOVE to do it more often but this inner struggle ALWAYS wins. So I have decided I am going to sit here and BLOG. I am not going to even go back and read it. I am not going to correct any spelling, worry about where a new paragraph should start, and I am not going to think twice about it. (ok I will think twice but prolly not more than 10 times)

I have so many wonderful things to blog about and really dont know where to start. Life of course is always a struggle but the thing that is great about it is I am always learning new things. God has placed some WONDERFUL people in my life and I am loving that. There arent a lot of people that you can sit for almost 40 minutes and laugh so hard every laugh muscle is BURNING about absolutely nothing and be completely sober. I really needed that! Laughter is very healing.

Midwifery is beautiful! God is awesome!! Beautiful 10 pound baby boy born 2 mondays ago, to a beautiful family that I am absolutely honored to be a part of their birth, life, and family. 5th home birth for this mama. She was amazing. Her and her hubby make an amazing team.
A couple weeks before that, a little girl was born at home. And just before that a little boy. The 6th boy in his family. I could go on and on. I am so blessed!

July 29th was my 9th wedding anniversary. WOW 9 years. Where does the time go? We didnt do anything but the other day my hubby came home with Nickelback tickets!! WOOOHOOO those who dont know me I LOVE Nickelback! The concert is August 28th. Hopefully my August mama has had her baby by then, BUT Im not counting on it. I am just going to pray Gods will. There will be other concerts but this mama will only have her 1st baby once and I wouldnt miss it for the world.

My kiddos are getting bigger right before my eyes. So bitter sweet. Im ready for another hubby says no more. So I am praying for a heart to change. One or the other. I wish kids understood the love we have for them. Its a bummer that they have to wait to experience this kind of love until they have their own. But I know we were created perfectly and I trust that. Everything is a process right. So I end my raw,unedited and unperfect blogging session with a song that God has been laying on my heart for the last 20 minutes. (which is also a Bible verse I just cant remember which one.... Im sure you'll tell me Jenny :) <3 )

And I praise you, For I am fearfully and wonderfully made!